Just life..

I could not sleep last night. I don't know what is going on with my muscles and body, but it's not good. I was a mess of spasms and jolting shocks of pain everywhere.

I fell asleep around midnight. My husband was already asleep. He was off work last night, which was nice. We watched hockey and movies. It was a typical night. We went to bed, and I was really tired, so I curled up with my body pillow to help with my back and leg pain, and fell asleep.

Not long after (about 1:30AM), I woke up with my legs kicking rapidly and painfully. This is fairly common for me. I couldn't get comfortable, so I got up and went to another bed to try and stretch my back and legs. I feel awful when this happens. I tend to wake my husband up when I kick violently like this, and that's not fair to him. He doesn't get to sleep in the same bed with me often, and when he does, he gets kicked violently and awakened by my awful leg spasms. It makes me feel bad.

I laid in another bed trying to stretch and relax for hours. I could hear my huge grandfather clock chime the hours several times through the night as I laid there. It was maddening. I watched the sun peek its way through the windows as my eyes finally grew heavy. As soon as they closed, they opened once more to the barking of my dogs who were outside. I gave up. It was 7:30AM.

I came down the stairs and poured myself some coffee that my husband made. He felt awful that I looked so disheveled. He knew I didn't sleep. He hugged me, kissed my forehead. I sipped my coffee and came to rest on the couch to watch crap on the TV and read news on the net.

My entire body feels like it has been beaten with a baseball bat. My joints burn with every movement. My left ankle feels like it is stiff (like it has been broken and left to heal improperly), and incapable of proper movement. My shoulders do not want to move. I keep having twinges of pain shoot through my body, randomly. I keep losing feeling in my left foot. I goes dead. I don't know why. My elbows feel like I've been using them to row a boat for three days, nonstop.

What the hell is wrong with my body? Why am I falling apart at such a young age?

I understand I have Fibro. But seriously, it flared up this bad? This is insane.  I can't take this anymore. And to put the icing on the cake, I have these psychos on my back bitching at me like childish brats because I don't agree with this soap "cure" for RLS. I wish I was joking when I said that, but alas, it's true. I have these twits actually going hog wild batshit crazy because I don't think it is a viable treatment and I called it a "crackpot" treatment. Seriously, they need help. And the help I have for these women is very simple. It's safe, it's simple, and it works.

It comes in various shapes and sizes. Helps every individual relieve stress. Runs on batteries and is referred to as a "personal massager" or "dildo". With it, they can politely go fuck themselves till they're sedate or whatever they want to feel.

My god, I've never met a more uptight group of women who needed a good fucking in my life. And they desperately need it.